sympathize

my ex boyfriend of 2 months called me tonight. i knew i shouldn't answer it; everytime we've talked since we broke up, i end up crying and miserable-- not to mention my eyes are practically swollen shut.

i feel like talking to him just slows down the progress i have been making alone. without seeing him on campus, talking to him on the phone, chatting on aim, or exchanging e-mails, i am trying to move on, and heal. the minute i hear his voice, the depression starts again, and i just can't stop crying. it's like he's throwing a wrench in the gears, and now, i move backwards, degenerate.

i need to not talk to him. recenty inspired by another hapa blogger, i hope to not be in contact with him for awhile. and i mean it. although i did send him an e-mail about an hour ago, i don't want to hear his voice for a long time. and i mean it. finding the right balance for a couple of people who ended a year and a half long relationship for a normal friendship is going to be the most daunting task ever.

on the bright side, here is a conversation from my friend, and her younger brother, who had come up to stay with her for a day or so.
brother: are we hanging out with [me] tonight?
friend: i dunno. why?
brother: i dunno. she's a good bowler.
friend: do you like her or something?
brother: i think she's hot.

how flattering. he's not too shabby himself, although the high school and college gap is pretty wide, i like his curls.