holla! soo good! ;)

i am doing so good. i haven't talked to my ex in 2 weeks or e-mailed or anything! yes! the last time this happened.. he called. scary. i am really so proud of myself.. i deserve to spoil myself! well, maybe before i go to work tomorrow i will be. i can reward myself as the weeks go on!

it was weird talking to shauna about it at applebees because she never met him! and she hardly heard anything about it/him either so i couldn't like just sum it all up into one or anything!! i tried a little but there's only so much you can do without sacraficing what it really was you know? she was telling me how she realized that crushes were stupid and liking people were just getting in the way so yeah she doesn't do that i guess! she said it's been years since she liked someone and i thought.. gosh.. crazy. i liked.. no i loved him, i had a major crush on jamie (and acted upon it.. =P) and then miami too. i think they're people i liked.. yeah. them and luke since 2002 or 3. shauna said no liking then no pain. that's true. but then i thought of everything she wouldn't get to experience otherwise too. i guess without chances there aren't true risks and true rewards.

satc season 1 finale was good.